miércoles, 23 de noviembre de 2011


all i want ... is you

everynight before sleep, i whisper to myself, ''good night babe, hop'e you dream with me''; 

miércoles, 19 de octubre de 2011

Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,

When will I see you again?, You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said, No final kiss to seal any seams, I had no idea of the state we were in.  I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness, And a  
wanderin' eye, and a heaviness in my head,...
But don't u remember?, don't you remember? me before. Baby, please remember the reason you love me

miércoles, 12 de octubre de 2011


...Cause I promised I would constantly love you
Until the day I die I promised I would constantly love you
Until the ends of time.

I need you in sickness,I need you in health,I need you on my guest list
                                                                                             I need you by myself

So be apart forever, Baby boy, you're mine, But nothing lasts forever
                                                                                       So instead I'll take my life

Got no time to waste
                                                                               'Cause there's no smile here...

...por ti, todo lo que hago yo lo hago por tí, es que tu me sacas lo mejor de mí... 
soy todo lo que soy, porque tu eres todo lo que quiero.... 


miércoles, 31 de agosto de 2011

Don't stray

Oye niña quieres callar, el amor puede esperar,
no ves que no puedo ni aguantar?, solo pienso que ...
Quiero mear, no aguanto mas!.

Find something for look at myself.  
Hello, im remembering you <3

martes, 30 de agosto de 2011

pack up.

oh, say... 
''wait, they don't love you , like i love you''

Oh god, i'm tryin' really, i am!. but its hard... 

miércoles, 17 de agosto de 2011

less than a year.

Life is better
  when you think that the ones who are gone,
are lookin' down at you,
up there in the sky

Daniela Casablancas

Have been 7 months and 21 days, since my grand father Cholito died, have been 27 days since my grand mother Olguita died, have been 3 days since my Great grand mother Abuelita Mercedes died
Its hard, everyone is leaving me, i think is the law of life, but... why all of them together, i don't have nothing now, i mean i don't have a 'grannie' image. 
I do not want more, really, is hard, it hurts a lot... but at least i know, they are much better now, up there in the sky, looking down us, watching how fuck up is this world... 

My great grand mother, my fathers grand mother, was the most awesome person i ever met in this entire world, i got my love for the tattoos by her, she had this amazing Anchor in her arm, and when i was a child, the first time that i saw it, was such a curious thing, i was wondering ''what is that cool thing'', and then she show me closer... omg, i'll never forget that memory... when she smiled at me and told me 'this, is an anchor.. i did it when i was a lot of younger....''.

Abuelita Mercedes was the greatest image as a grand mother that someone could ever have, at hers 96 years old, she still was smiling all the times, saying jokes, dancing, being happy; and now i know... after everything in this life, after sadness, after lost, after happyness, after heartbreaks... life go on, and always we have to welcome it with a big smile, like my great grandmother. smiling and loving, all the time.

Now is my turn, 
thank you Abuelita Mercedes, for all the memories, for all the yummy meals, sweets, and drinks. 
have a nice trip to heaven, love you forever. 

Daniela Mella C.

martes, 2 de agosto de 2011

Por qué no llamabas?, ahora lo sé
y yo pensando q eras así...
debería decirte todo
Llamarte y tan solo escuchar tu voz


lunes, 25 de julio de 2011

Farewell ~

I miss your face,
I miss the places that I once knew 
but I dont like this space .. this abscense lays with insomnia 

i must say farewell, to you, my only grandma for years, my support in my life when i was a child. 
You told us how to survive to life, you taught us how to live in this world. 

Thank you for everything grandma, i'm gonna miss you so much, i'm gonna remember you every single second in me. 
I always will love you, cause you was the best grandma ever. 

25 march 1922 -- 20 july 2011 and forever.
Olga ♥

martes, 19 de julio de 2011

there it is.

You'll find a way to make me crazy hazy
So hypnotized think of the blue skies, new eyes
And I'll never roam again
And I'm back in love again
And I see the stars again
Find my way back home again
 i've delete this words a million of times, because i do not know what i cant write now. Have been pretty much time isn't?, Well i was for me.

Thinking about the subjet, somes say that time can cure everything, but what is a cure anyway?... wich somebody tell me... 

i'm creating some new stuffs, i'm changing my way to think, i'm keeping out my feelings.
but i'm not sure why i'm still writing this... i guess is because i'm waiting for something, and that something is not gonna come if i dont look for it. so...

There it is!

Greetings, Me

viernes, 1 de julio de 2011

i think i took it too much (too much!)

We grow too fast
Now slow the pace
Now I want nothing but your face
And in this game you win the race
I lose out underground
In this cold world you are the warmth
You are the lightning of my storm
I’ve lost my dreams in which you won’t come true

Forgive me darkstar
'Cause I love you
I think I took it too far
'Cause I love you
In time you'll love me back but time will be too late
I packed a pistol just in case
My constant smiles at me and tells me its okay
So fuck the distance let's embrace <3


I saw myself in a mirror, i think im growing old too fast, this is maybe cause im in love, and when im in love.... my body feel sick. i've been sick for the three pass years.

My heart is bleeding, and i wont stop it, is nice to be hurt; it make me feel alive.. and, probably, i deserve it.
Sometimes, i just lay down in to my bed and dream, dream about being in another places, just pack my suitcase and go far away, with no look back, just take some train, some autobus and run away... Maybe i need some of 'nowhere'. But, is just a dream, is just a 'want to'.... thats is not gonna happen, not... 'till you tell me you don't love me anymore.
Because, that is my HOPE . I know you still love me.


martes, 28 de junio de 2011

Self Machine

It said I gave you these scars
And I gave you these wounds
I told you the false
And I showed you the truth

I saw the mirror staring back at me
And it told me I’m a self machine
I’m not a human if you say I’m not
I’m not a human anekatips if my engines lock
And this motor that you call my heart
Is another machine that will stop .
I blame coco 
Its a new life so...i cut my hair. maybe when i have 30, i'll mature. 
now, i just wanna lay here and play my bass with no sense. Its hard to explain but ... never mind.

domingo, 12 de junio de 2011

And I knew you could never love me
I had so much sorrow inside
You could never reach
But I'll ask you this

Will you still miss me?...
...Do you love me?...
I wish i had the answer to my questions, i wish i had the courage...
to tell you that i love you more than anything... listen to me, I LOVE YOU.  

martes, 7 de junio de 2011

quiero caminar por encima de tu pelo hasta llegar al ombligo de tu oreja,
y recitarte un poquito de cosquilla', y regalarte una sábana de almejas
darte un beso de desayuno, pa' irnos volando hasta Neptuno. 
Si hace frío te caliento como una sopa de amapola
y con un fricasé de acerola.
 Calle 13

nd' i send you warm and tight hugs in the distance. coz baby its cold outside. cold... like you in this moments.


viernes, 3 de junio de 2011


¿cómo quieres que no tenga rabia
si lo que hay en mi
aún gira a tu alrededor?.
Mira bien mis ojos lloran rabia.. 
al no saber porqué te vas, sin saber decir o actuar...


I'm sick........ and, i like this song :), enjoy your weekend coz me, im gonna just lay down in to my bed and have a nice sleep, dreaming bout you.

martes, 31 de mayo de 2011


I just can't get a hold of why we always hurt the ones we love
Can burning hearts still keep us strong

I am not gonna be the person you expect me to be. im done, im not gonna follow your rules.
so Fuck you. and go on with your shitty life. 

jueves, 26 de mayo de 2011


you take me with you if you could, but i wouldn't go
I guess sometimes we both loose our minds, to find a better road.

i like to love you, is like my secret... i do not know if you feel the same, but sometimes... is better shut up.i want you by my side, i want you to be mine. ... You want the same?, please... tell me.

i told you, if it takes forever... forever it be.

lunes, 23 de mayo de 2011

i say i never will walk away.

i'm the setting sun behind the trees, the saddest one you've seen.
i've been burning holes and breaking dreams, and i regret it.
i'm fixing things i've broken, it's not as easy as it used to be.
i'm throwing temper tantrums, i used to settle.
but now i make a scene you can't believe...

I don't want to live forever, forever is just a word. I do not want to be remember, i want to be forgotten.
I want to die watching the stars, flying away holding your hand. I want to die feeling the cold breeze in my skin, like those days when i tried to no be so obvious 'bout my feelings with you.
I want to be a simple girl, a simple woman, a simple penguin, a simple part of this world. I do not dream about be famous, i do not try to be know it.
I don't want to make difference in this population, because i am the difference.
Everyone is always saying: ''i want to leave my print in this world''; i do not want to be part of that everyone.
Why now people are trying to fix this world, why now are they trying to take care of him. Maybe they are taking Conscience, but why now?, why not before when all was perfect. I got the answer, thats because the people are stupid, the person is not. If a 100 of guys suicide himself, another 100 will think thats the right way.

I am not part of the people, I am just a 'person', i'm just... me .

miércoles, 18 de mayo de 2011

can't you see?

Oh sugar, oh sugar can't you see, how hard I'm trying?
You know you gotta, you know you gotta eventually make up your mind.
'Cause no one's gonna find you when you're hiding in the dark.
No one's gonna find you when you're hiding in the dark.

So won't you, so won't you talk to me?
It's time to decide.
'Cause no one's gonna save you if you don't swim for the boat.
No one's gonna save you if you won't take the rope.
No one's gonna find you when you're hiding in the dark. No one's gonna find you.
And it's end love, the sky is falling.

So sugar, so sugar dance with me this one last time.
We got no reason, we got no reason I can see to hold back tonight.
'Cause no one's gonna catch you if you can't just let go.
No one's gonna love you if you can't let love show.
No one's gonna find you when you're hiding in the dark. No one's gonna find you.


 it suppose to be like this always, fuck... i don't know what to do.

martes, 17 de mayo de 2011

Hangin from the tree

if you should be that last autumn leaf
hanging from the tree.
i'll still be here waiting on the breeze, to bring you down to me .


this is for you... and always will be for you c:

sábado, 14 de mayo de 2011


They say:

''hey now girl,tell me why do you do''

Sheh say's:

''I'm nothing but I'm damn sure it's more than you''


Sometimes i feel like i'm not part of something that we used to call family, i'm sick of this cause what i'm feeling is a crappy thing, is weird thing.

I want to feel that he look at me as a daughter, i want to feel more than 'who help me with some tech issues'. But i'm pretty sure that is gonna never happen; sucks to feel like this, i'm sure he love me, of course.... but also i'm sure he do it not the way that i want.

He don't pay atencion to me, he don't pay atencion to nothing, or maybe yes, to another person who isnt his own family, Everything to others!, favors, hugs, Praise to everyone! but me...  he don't even say 'good night' or 'sweet dreams'... Maybe is because works is too much, maybe is because is tired, but i'd like more, Some 'how was your day' would be enough.
Perhaps i'm the problem, perhaps ain't open myself too much as he want it... or maybe is because i know some things of him. Perhaps i have to talk about those things with someone beside my girl.

I know he is paying for my due and i'm not contempt it, but sometimes i'd like his love more than his money </3

Well.. i think i'm asking too much and if one of them (family) read this words, are gonna say ''she's over reacting'' but let's not forget.. it's ME who is feeling this.

It sucks to be me in this moments, i want you next to me, after all you are the only one who understand me or at least listen to me.

They'll say it Again

And they sacrifice their lives,
And they're lying about those odds.
Oh they've said it a billion times,
And they'll say it again.
So long, my adversary
And friend. 

 The strokes.

i miss the times when i just walked in to the forest, searching for some opportunities, searching maybe for the answer to my questions. I was a kid in those days, i was a simply teenager... who would say that now, beeing some kinda of woman, the answer just come to my head in no expected time. 

i'll like to say, this is my life.. and I want to choose whatever i like... and I choose you :)

miércoles, 11 de mayo de 2011

The first time

The first time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't see you with the smoke getting in my eyes
I said "Hello" but you kept on walking
I'm going deaf from the sound of the DJ...

Plus 44.

i'll try to keep going with my writing, is amazing how i can explain my words in acts, is amazing how i feel tonight... in three words: i - m - in - love.. d'oh! that was four ;).

martes, 10 de mayo de 2011

Livin' in a new Dimension.

You have this person on the streets you aren´t correct because i´m ignorant as shit, not hear to preach, 
man you now, i just wanna have fun, go to the beach, man thats all i am. 
i´m just a simple guy who talks when you put a microphone in front him..

Julian Casablancas

...mmmm....Maybe next time.... ;)

lunes, 9 de mayo de 2011

walk away

I wanna explode, watch me, im a lucky girl... See I, I like you. So won't you pay  if you wanna go down

I love to watch you, honey.. u need me so let's see: what do you care, if you want to u should pay if you wanna go..

Don't walk away, don't walk away love.....

I wanna touch you, slowly... im a lonely girl come on you want to, so won't you pay if you want to go down.

Id love to hurt you, easy i've got you inside me... what do you care?, if you want to u should pay if you wanna go..

Why don't you pay if you wanna go?  you got to pay if you want some more.

uh uh her ~

Words become in words when people is available to create something in their heads. Unfortunately i don't have the gift of writing, but i do my best in this simple text.
Pass few days have been amazings, everything is ok, the most important thing (which is me, btw) is ok :).

Love?.. oh! amazing hehe ~ (blush). If i can talk 'bout her could i say shes amazing, and seriously i don't even know how is possible to have this women by my side cause her support is fundamental for my life.
i been thinking in life lately, i'm asking to myself if i appreciate life and can not find the answer haha !, but its ok, cause now i thing i have to just enjoy my life, enjoy my family, enjoy my friends (they are not to much, just a couple), enjoy my pets but over everything enjoy my girlfriend.

i will never know when i'm gonna die, but what i know is that when the moment finally show up.. i'm gonna be proud of myself, cause as i heard one time... everything is magic.

jueves, 5 de mayo de 2011

affacciati alla finestra amore mio...

Se ti incontro per strada non riesco a parlarti, mi si bloccano le parole.
non riesco a guardarti negli occhi mi sembra di impazzire,se potessi semplificare il battito del mio cuore
sentiresti un batterista di una band in metallo pesante, ed è per questo che sono qui davanti.
perché mi viene molto più facile cantarti una canzone, magari che la sentano i muri o le persone,
piuttosto che telefonarti, dirti tutto faccia a faccia, rischiando di fare una figuraccia.
sono timido, ma l'amore mi da coraggio !
e per dirti che da quando io ti ho vista è sempre maggio e a maggio il mondo è bello e invitante di colori,
ma ancora sugli alberi ci sono solo fiori che prima o poi si dice diverranno pure frutti e allora tu che fai, golosamente aspetti, aspetti che quel desiderio avvenga condiviso.

io sono qui davanti che ti chiedo un sorriso, affacciati alla finestra amore mio. Affacciati al balcone,
rispondimi al citofono, sono venuto qui col giradischi e col microfono insieme al mio complesso
per cantarti un sentimento e se tu mi vorrai  baciare io sarò contento.

una serenata rap  per dirti che ti te mi piace come mi guardi, mi piace come sei con me.
mi piace quel tuo naso  che si intona con il mondo, mi piace il tuo sedere così rotondo,
da rendere satellite ogni essere vivente, mi piaci perché sei intelligente.


miércoles, 4 de mayo de 2011

life its tuff

Been trying to found a reason to get better in this life. ''life is tuff'' i remember my granpa say to me before die.
Its very hard remember him, for years i don't even know what was to have a grand father, and in just a second after 18 years finaly i knew it...
at first it was difficult to talk with him, i felt so awkward, i didnt know what to talk, what subject... about.. what?
but al last ... our relationship was changing, somehow my trips to his house on the beach make it better. and i was so proud of him, it was difficult, it was happy, it was amazing .. ''finally i have a granpah!'' i was telling to myself.

2 years pass till we knew, we knew that he had cancer.... and it was then when i understood the famous words ''life is tuff''.

December 27- 2010, he die.. December 27, 6 days after my birthday, 2 days after christmas... 4 days before new year.

I miss my granpah so much, he was the only image of 'grand father' that i had, and i miss him, even the times that i didnt to talk to him, even when he didnt look at me like a Granddaughter.

There's one thing that i remember of my granpa when i was a kid, it was on his beach house... some family stuff i think, and it was my granpa and i, looking for some Crabs on the rocks; i was like 8 years old and i was about to touch one of the alive crabs and he say to me ''don't... its gonna hurt, and i don't want to you cry cause big girls don't cry'' and he smiled at me... for the first time, he smile at me...

lunes, 2 de mayo de 2011

lunes, 25 de abril de 2011

i'm trying

i'm trying to do something with my life, im supose to love someone but lastly i'm wondering: how the hell i'm gonna love someone else if i don't love myself.

Is easy to say, 'YES I LOVE MYSELF' but... how many people realy mean it?.
Love is a fancy word, Love is a nice and quiet word, Love is a Odious word, Love is just a word, Love is a feeling, Love doesn't exist when you Don't want that exist.

So, we could say that Love is not real when you don't want it to be real, but matter of fact we all love in some point of ours lifes and i'm NOT meaning family's love, or friendly love...
I'm talking about LOVE, passion, that feeling when you want someone to be YOURS, that feeling that you cant take it off you chest, that feeling inside of yours pants, that feeling in your Throat.. i'm talkin about that kind of love.

well, that kind of love, is the one that at least one time you felt... and then is over, and is just over. And you cant ask to yourself: '' this is it?, just this... i felt so many feelings, so many sensations, i cried so hard for her, and now is over?''. And then you remember all the good moments with her, and all the bad moments with her, and that's when you try to find the reason of the break up, of the end of this Loving cataclysm, and then finaly you can find it.

And guess what? it never was your fault.

well i get confused.

Acumulate some stories of life, acumulate some stories of dead. wich one would i tell to my children?... do i will have children?... do i want to have children?.... do some girl sometime will want to have my children?.

nice question ha'?